Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Struggling, but not in the way you probably think
So today has been a real doozie. Basically an emotional roller coaster that I would REALLY like to get off of! And it has nothing to do with diet or exercise. In fact that part is not even really on my mind. I mean don't get me wrong, I would have totally have rather had pizza tonight for dinner but I made a healthy choice instead. And I am good with that. However, I have discovered I am in constant need of other people's approval or affection or just a thank-you every now and then would be awesome. I even find myself going out of my way to do things for people in my life just so they will say thanks. Ugh, no clue when I got this way because I sure as hell don't remember needing other people's approval like this before. And it has nothing to do with this weight loss journey, or at least I don't think. I didn't start out on this journey for anyone but myself. No one told me to get skinny although plenty of people have called me fat over my lifetime. Maybe it goes back to that and really wanting to please people that I feel like I have never impressed before. Maybe I am just nuts. Anyhow, I just needed to say it, get it out, so that is what I did. Tomorrow is weigh-in day, I have to say I am not even excited. I will try to remember to post, no matter what the number says.